i think i like this little life

A popular tiktok going around right now, usually a video showcasing someone's dog or family members. Social media, ugh, I don't know what to say, but I think most people my age would say they have a love-hate relationship with it. Of course, it's wonderful to stay connected with old friends, or family that can't be near, but on the other hand, it's recipe for comparison that can lead to jealousy. You know what "they" say, comparison is the thief of joy. "They" likely being my mother or grandmother. Social media allows us to feel like we still know old friends and now their children, getting their licenses, going to Homecoming, excelling in school and sports. Family Easter egg hunts, new babies & even the death of loved ones. It's such a false sense of knowing someone, being a part of their lives. Kindof sad but it's how a lot of relationships are these days. I easily think it lets me put my relationships on cruise control. "Aww there is so-and-so's new baby, commenting 'Congrats on your baby girl, she is precious. Enjoy her!' Done. Now I've acknowledged that, let's move on to a video of a baby giraffe or a high speed chase that didn't end well". But it's the daily monotony of life that we miss out on. Conversations over lunch that lead to venting about an argument with your mother, the daily struggle with your daughter that you want advice on, planning a getaway when noone has money or the time to make it actually happen. Sidenote: that is one of my favorite things that organically occur, when you're with friends, and you automatically plan for "the next vacation" and all but book it while still with your friends. Likely, the vacation may not or will surely not happen, but it's so fun to think about the possibility. That phenomenon has got to have a name. But I will say I love having a planner personality in this scenario because they might make it happen. But me, nah, I'll wait to see you on IG and just comment on your post. Maybe it's a season and soon we'll be footloose and fancy free to make those vacations happen more frequently, to actually connect to old friends who we still hold near to our hearts.

dreamy

Have you seen the movies where the person gets to go back in time and choose a different set moment in time that puts them down that "other" path? It's a whirlwind of events, like in a blink of an eye, that shows how different their lives would be if it only happened or they only said "yes" to that one thing or person. I have vivid dreams most nights. Daniel said I should write them down. Not sure that's the best options or what that would solve other than to make me seem more crazy that I am. In these dreams I regularly find myself back in time, perhaps it's college and I'm with our old gang and we're doing something stupid and all laughing. Most of the times they don't make sense after I wake up. Thankfully they aren't usually too scary. But what I've come to appreciate is the people are real, the emotions are real and usually they are entertaining. I get to go back in time, sometimes to a place I've never been, but always with someone who's been in my life at some point, and experience a memory or make a new one. Even if that memory doesn't last past breakfast. Just two nights ago, I woke up breathless, so thankful it was "just a dream", because my credit, my identity had been stolen and I was not having any luck with people believing who I was. It was scary. But other than that chaos and the randomness of it all, Hayes was there, as a 5 year old, with his thick, blonde hair, chubby little fingers and his small, raspy voice. And he gave me a big hug, I guess to say, it's ok momma. And I got a smile. I think I woke up pretty quick after that but the hug-it felt real. His little face and smile. All of it. After that moment, I smiled and thought that Im going to keep dreaming. To be thankful for my oh so vivid dreams. I get to be transported to another time, real or not, and I'm praying I get to meet more of my favorites along the way.

Georgia's 1st tap & dance recital

Georgia was front & center in her 2 performances. She was the one chosen to hold the prop (a globe) & really seemed to have a good time! I was really proud of her & I have to admit I had a good time doing her makeup, hair & getting to spend extra time with her 1 on 1. We'll have to wait & see if she wants to do it again next year.

2, 4, 6, 8 who do we appreciate...MOM!!!

Happy Mother's Day!!