dreamy

Have you seen the movies where the person gets to go back in time and choose a different set moment in time that puts them down that "other" path? It's a whirlwind of events, like in a blink of an eye, that shows how different their lives would be if it only happened or they only said "yes" to that one thing or person. I have vivid dreams most nights. Daniel said I should write them down. Not sure that's the best options or what that would solve other than to make me seem more crazy that I am. In these dreams I regularly find myself back in time, perhaps it's college and I'm with our old gang and we're doing something stupid and all laughing. Most of the times they don't make sense after I wake up. Thankfully they aren't usually too scary. But what I've come to appreciate is the people are real, the emotions are real and usually they are entertaining. I get to go back in time, sometimes to a place I've never been, but always with someone who's been in my life at some point, and experience a memory or make a new one. Even if that memory doesn't last past breakfast. Just two nights ago, I woke up breathless, so thankful it was "just a dream", because my credit, my identity had been stolen and I was not having any luck with people believing who I was. It was scary. But other than that chaos and the randomness of it all, Hayes was there, as a 5 year old, with his thick, blonde hair, chubby little fingers and his small, raspy voice. And he gave me a big hug, I guess to say, it's ok momma. And I got a smile. I think I woke up pretty quick after that but the hug-it felt real. His little face and smile. All of it. After that moment, I smiled and thought that Im going to keep dreaming. To be thankful for my oh so vivid dreams. I get to be transported to another time, real or not, and I'm praying I get to meet more of my favorites along the way.